It's shock my heart !

My heart nearly stopped working when the Doctor in Singapore told me about the result of my Dad's condition after he scanned my Dad's brain and the whole body! That's result was shock and killed my feeling. I just feel it is so fast for Dad to receive this kind of disease. Doctor Su who made surgery my Dad to take the pleural out from his lungs told me in his office plus showing and describing about the scan result. Firstly,he told me to be strong and accep the truth! :( My both hands were very cold as I know that It is not a good result! Yes, he told me that my Dad has Lung Cancer Stage IV already and too late to cure it. My tears dropped down without sounding in front of him. Doctor asked me whether I wants him to tell my Dad the truth or
I can do myself ? I begged Doctor that do not tell him now as m afraid
Of his condition now can't accept and face the truth! He agreed me what I suggested him! He told me not to think so much as no one will stay last forever ! Frankly, I already lost a smile and laugh since I heard it from Doctor.

Since the result came out, Dad asked me what kind of his illness? Dad said I heard the Cancer from Doctor's assistant. I said Yes Dad u really has Cancer but it is just in stage II only so it still can cure, no worry Dad! Actually, i feel hard that I lie that to him but I cant tell
him about this! I came out and cried a lot in th toilet alone cos I dont know what should I can help Dad!!!! Why it happens to me like this???
I couldnt sleep then I came to meet a Doctor again to ask about my Dad's condition how many years and months he can stay longer and have time with me? He said maybe only 1 year down :( but he also guarantee about this well as some patients just only 8 or 6 months then die:( he said it depends on good environment around. So, just try to make him happy more and don't make him stress alot!
The Doctor said my Dad's cancer disease can't be curable or make operation to take that Tomur out from his lungs as it already spreads to his brain and borns already :( it is so late to cure!! But he can make treatment by Chemotheraphy ! He needs to inject Chemotheraphy in every 3 weeks! Doctor recommended me that my Dad can inject Chemotherapy in Cambodia as it is good for my Dad to spend his less life with family no need to inject in Singapore as my Dad must be tired by many times of traveling. Doctor wrote letter about using the Standard Treatment to Doctor in Cambodia.

Now, 2 months are gone so fast ! I only count the days!! Dad still think he will be better soon as I lied to him that his disease can't be curable:( Sorry Dad!! I want to tell him many times but i still can't do ! I feel m so weak to let him knows about this! What should I do then? Who can tell?