Keep a smile and hope !

I feel this year (2012) is the busiest year for me. Why i said so? Because i have two things need to be responsible for. One is taking care of Dad and another thing is work must be completed it as this year Cambodis will host 20th ASEAN Summit on April, 45th AMM/PMCs/ASEAN+3 Foreign Ministers Meeting(July) and 21st ASEAN Summit and related Summited(November 2012), See?:(.

To talk about Dad, my heart and mind used to be so shock till I lost a feeling to care of people around since I knew my Dad has serious disease. Just lately I seem recovery my feeling back and start work and talk to colleagues as normal, but my feeling is always thinking of Dad condition. I know I have a poor expression to say anything about my feeling to Dad or my family members but I think it is not important whether i express to them or not. I now only tell myself to relax my feeling and try to smile as I can as I need to face a sad thing in my life in the future when that time comes, thus I need to be strong from now on. God can know about my feeling so I dont need to care whether they can see my worrying about Dad or not as this year i am so busy in work, therefor many things they might not know about my surviving in these two issues. Hmmm I do hope Dad must understand about this daugter than other. Dad, I really want to help u as I can but what should I do as even the specialist doctor also said u are in Advance stage of Lungs cancer stage IV:(. I still feel it is unbelievable that u have this disease, Dad! :( ! However, we must accept it and face the truth. Your daughter, Nimol, will keep strong and learn to be independent girl when your last minute comes and also when I need to live without u, Dad.

Since you are being sick of disease, I seem completely forgot to think of myself as I never give myself to relax even with friends out after work. Dad,do not worry about daughter as I believe that your daughter will be happy and get a real happiness life ! Your daughter always keeps hard and walk on the right way. I will try my best to be a good person who is helpful for friends, family and people around. In addition, daughter wish I could meet the real lover and could get married when your health is still okay to see my great day comes ! But if that great day comes and u were not in this earth anymore then no worry as I will be kept u in my good memory forever. Daughter will be reasonable and understandable woman in the family and build a great and happiness in family to repay what u have provided to me, Dad. I will be fortunated girl through your blessing, Dad!:) Your daughter will live with a smile, positive and hope ! :)