Suffering is over...

Dear Father, Since you passed away last year on 17 May 2012. Yes, you are now fine, no more suffering and painful for you anymore. To let u left away from me or our family is good for you or not, but i really don't want u to leave us, Father. I have many regret things wanna tell you. After u just passed away for a week, it's something mixed up in my brain and feeling about what i did not do good or used to speak some inappropriate words to u before. I do hope you could forgive me with those actions and words. Time is so fast for me to spend time to look after u during u were serious sick. It also suffered for me as i had to be responsible for my work. Because i was busy with ASEAN Summit 2012. I was an Liaison Officer(LO). I also asked them to withdraw me from that work, but they could not accept my suggestion. I felt very stressful since i could not spend more time to take care of you, Father. Some members in our family said i thought and cared only work not worrying of Father:(.....However, i did not mind them cos they did not know and i also did not tell them either. Well, from now on, you are in the heaven. One thing that i wished and told myself to believe that u are in a safe, peaceful place and no more suffering. Now, i am in Brunei then sooner i will leave here for Hawaii (US)for my short training course. I hope u would be happy if u can hear about it from me. Honestly, I wish i could meet a man who loves me unconditionally like you.Yes, it is too late to show my feeling how good Father you are !....But, You have taught and given me some great experiences during you were sick and after u passed away. U taught me how to spend time and care for our beloved one. Thanks Father...U are always in my mind, heart and soul forever.